Remember? I had to wait till everyone was asleep to let you in, and we'd spend the night together, and in the morning it hurt when you were gone, and I would feel it all day, just yearning for our next time together. We started out seeing each other a couple times a week, and remember how sneaky we had to be? There was a lot of fun in that too. So, yeah, after that was when we really started our relationship.
GOODBYE LETTER TO MY ADDICTION FULL
Remember when we first really started seeing each other? It was right after V broke up with me and I went to that party and she was there and I was so nervous and scared and full of shame but you were there at that party too, and we pretty much hung out all night together, and the next morning when I woke up, you were there too, and I didn't know it then but that's when I started falling in love with you. You were there for me at the worst of times, the bad times. I mean, you were there for me after all, many times. And remember when we first met, when I was 15? I didn't know a whole lot about you then, and we had that brief fling, and I wish I could just go back and warn that 15 year old me about you, what you were going to do to me, how you were going to hurt me, toy with me, control me. Honestly, I think we should break up, and I'll tell you why. I mean, I haven't been smiling when I think of you. No, no I didn't miss you, but you've been on my mind. Yeah, sorry I've been away for so long (not even 60 days). Anyway, here it is:ĪDIOS, YOU BITCH Or HOW I LEARNED TO STOP WORRYING AND LOVE MYSELF There is section towards the end that talks about suicide, so trigger warning. It's very much in my voice and very personal.
Now, with a clear mind and a clear goal, I was able to write something I'm proud of, and she encouraged me to share it with people. I've always loved writing but I've been too busy being skunk drunk to do any. Hey everyone! I'm in a treatment program and my counselor wanted me to write a good bye letter to my addiction.
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